SOMEBODY forgot to logout awwwwww and theres nothing i can do besides tell everybody that my leg still hurts and my baby chelsea is laying byherself, sorry, because i cant sleep because of my leg, so im trying my best to stare into this computer hoping it will kill my eye balls shut, so ill be in there in a little bit i love you, claude duhhhhhhh
Only a few things in this life of mine are going how I want...aka, me and claude, and being ready to settle down. Yet, I'm 18, and apparently too young to marry so early, though; my mother did get married while she was 19...we just don't have the money.
I hate my job with all the energy i have. Going to work puts a damper on my life. checks that are on average 130+ dollars can't get you to college or an apartment..or the must....A CAR. I've had my license for a while now, but no car of my own. I bought liz's moms old buick a long time before, and it ended up blowing up on the highway...to my college interview...
I have pink eye, or something of that sort, and i should not have been serving people yesterday at work, it is a health code violation...but no one seemed to care. my doctors appointment is tomorrow for it, and if he says what we think it is, I have to take off work until it clears...which is bad only because i need money.
i would like to go shopping for myself sometime...get some pants that actually fit, since in the past 7 months now i have lost a good 30lbs and nothing is fitting properly...and though it's a good thing, i hate not having anything to wear. made me hate the fact i'm not going back to school and the fact my sister and mom came in the other day with a bag of pants for my sister for school...jealously sucks.
i guess claude is on his way over , on his bike. his dad is a dick and took away his insurance, and wants to still send him away in the military. my baby could get a job if his father acted like a father and helped his son fix his damn car...makes me sick to my stomach thinking about it.
all in good time, things will look up, i hope....
i love you claude, remeber, you're keeping me here right now.
rochelle and miranda, we need to hang out asap
Daniel and Jasmine are sitting alone in the park one night....
Daniel: I guess we are the left overs in this world
Jasmine: I think so... All of my friends have boyfriends and we are only the two people left in this world without any special person in our lives...
Daniel: Yup I don't know what to do
Jasmine: I know! We'll play a game
Daniel: What game?
Jasmine: I'll be your girl friend for 30 days and you will be my boy friend.
Daniel: That's a great plan in fact I don't have anything to do for the following weeks...
They watch their first movie and they both touched in a romantic film
They went to the beach and have a picnic...Daniel and Jasmine have their quality time together
Daniel invited Jasmine to a circus and they ride on a Horror House....Jasmine was scared and she touched Daniel's hand but she touched someone else's hand and they both laughed...
They saw a fortune teller down the road and they asked for their future advice and the fortune teller said: "My darling, Please don't waste the time of your life... spend the rest of your time together happily" Then tears flowed from the teller's eyes
Jasmine invited Daniel to go to the hill and they saw a meteor...Jasmine mumbled something
They sat on the bus and because of a bumpy road Jasmine gave her first kiss to Daniel by accident
Jasmine and Daniel sat in the park where they first decided to play this game...
Daniel: I'm thirsty Jasmine... do you want a drink? I'll buy you one... I'll just go down the road
Jasmine: Apple Juice that's all
Daniel: Wait for me....
20mins later... a stranger approached Jasmine
Stranger: Are you a friend of Daniel?
Jasmine: Why yes? What happened?
Stranger: A reckless driver ran over Daniel and he is critical in the hospital
The doctor went out of the emergency room and he handed out an apple juice and a letter...
Doctor: We found this in daniel's pocket
Jasmine reads the letter and it says:
Jasmine, This past few days, i realized you are a really cute girl and i am really falling for you... I cherished your smile your everything when we played this game..... Before this game ends... I would like you to be my girl friend for the rest of my life.... I love you Jasmine....
Jasmine crumples the paper and shouted:
"Daniel ! i don't want you to die... I love you...Remember that night when we saw a meteor, I mumbled something... I mumbled that I wish we would be together forever and never end this game. Please don't leave me Daniel.... I love you! You cannot do this to me!"
Then the clock strikes 12
Daniel's heart stop pumping
THEN IT WAS THE 30TH DAY........
Always love your loved ones and show them how you feel before it is too late... You will never know when they will be gone from your embrace... If you were given a time to bestow petals of everlasting compassion and love to your loved ones? Today is the day.... Love them while they are still here...
Copy Paste and after 24hours .... Your loved one will realize how they are significant to you!
Repost this in 5min.
and a miracle will happen tonight
Do not ignore or you'll regret it later
So here I am...Eyes swollen, sister away at ozzfest, parents pissed at me, and Claude at his own house probably sleeping...here I am, alone and needing someone to talk to more than ever. This night didn't seem so horrible until I got home. I was running a little behind from taking Claude home because my poor self saw a baby kitten on elk creek rd. walking in the road and kept driving, then turned around to try and pick it up and bring it back here...that failed. So I drove back into Trenton towards Gas America because I was hungry and wanted to stop by Taco Bell to get something to eat before I came home. Ended up my father called me because Claude thought I called from the house but I didn't, and asked me where I was saying Claude told him I had left 20 minutes ago. I told him I was going to get something to eat but scratch that idea since they obviously wanted me home. So I sped home, could have easily gotten pulled over twice, but didn't, and made it in the door safely. Well I guess I dropped the keys on the table too hard or something because my dad said "What was that" while I was walking to the bathroom...so I automactically said I was sorry, and he said it again, and I then again said "I am SO sorry." and proceeded to use the bathroom. He then stomped back to his room saying he was "so sick of this shit..." of what shit dad? What is it? Am I the "less than perfect" daughter, that isn't allowed to be 10 minutes late sometimes? I'm sorry that I AM 18, and would like a little more freedom than I am experiencing here in this household. I need a fucking car like crazy. So bad. So, Tuesday, I am going Job hunting once again so that I can find something decent and a cheap apartment for the time being. I guess I made a mistake when I yelled " I CAN'T WAIT TO GET OUT OF HERE, SERIOUSLY" because my mom just nodded her head like it was the wrong thing to say...If I had the funds to do so, I'd be gone by now. Out of Trenton. This place is a good place to grow up, but not stay after you graduate High School. Though it's only been about 3 months since school let out and I finished, it still sucks here, and I hate it. Me and Claude both need out so badly. He still may be doing the Coast Guard, but I couldn't live with him on the base unless we got married. . . we can't afford a wedding right now, probably a marrige license, but I am not going to rush him into that. I know he wants it as much as I do, but we just have to wait to see whats going to happen. If he goes, I'm going to probably have to get an apartment down there by myself so I can atleast be closer to him knowing that I can see him when he has some time off....
I made a pay pal account, but I dont know how to put it on anything for people to donate. It's my Car, college, apartment, anything fund. You can donate a penny, or more....it's up to you. I'll let you know when I get that up and working though....
Rochelle, we need a day together soon, I want to take you out for ice cream and whatnot....fun times are needed...I love you.
Claude, I love you with all my heart...you're the one thing keeping me alive..thank you.
This boy means so much to me. I am so lucky to finally know who I want to spend the rest of my life with. Every moment spent with him makes me feel like a million dollars. Our lives have both been amazing since we met again. Finally the one, true person I was supposed to be with, and wake up next to, almost every morning. I love you hunny, you're the world and more to me. <3
this weekend...well since thursday night has had it's ups and downs..warped tour wasn't what i thought it'd be..basically i didn't have the greatest time, and i didn't see one band i wanted to. i have sun poisioning, and it hurts so very badly, still, three days later. ehh
been worrying a lot. basically over little things..claude may be joining the coast guard, which isn't so bad...it's for the best..i just dont know what i am going to do with myself. at all...FRIENDS!!! umm...i need a car, someone who will let me give them payments cause thats all i can afford to do as of now...i have no credit, which i need to do soon...and well i just want out on my own, in cincy probably, with claude, living our lives...NOW...please god help me...
he isn't here tonight, which sucks...a lot...i sleep so much better with my boo here...yes, i said boo. : ) i love you hunny, sorry for the drama tonight. <3
Just sitting here waiting for Claude to get back online..and started thinking about my future wedding and how i want it..so, here it is. lol, don't make fun...
I don't want the traditional white dress, I want a red and black one. And the brides maids will wear black strapless dresses that are about knee length with a red ribbon aroudn the waist. My husband would be wearing all black with a red tie....as well as his groomsmen.
I want my flowers to be red and black roses. My wedding cake bright red with black icing ribbons around it..it will be 8 teared...pretty big...with rose flower accents as well with the ribbons.
I'd like to have two flower girls, walking side by side with red roses to put all down the isle. . . and a cute little ring barrer...prefrebily owen...he'll still be pretty little i think.. : ) (aaawwww claude)
I want us to write our own vowls so they mean a lot more.
Either on the Big Ben tower, or 20th century theater, OR australia....if a church....it has to be all "gothed" out, not white and pretty....well, it'll still be prety, but no, no crosses.....
sorry....just thinking about things...it's always fun, every girl does it : )
i love you claude
So, everything is still going pretty well. Still at skyline, still sucks ass. But I may be getting somewhere with it sooner or later, not sure yet. We'll have to see if I find another job first. Which is always a pretty hard thing to do, espically in this city, with a license, but no car. But I think as soon as I get a better job, or a raise, I'm going to buy a car to get me from here to there, build up some credit, and get an apartment with Claude. I love sleeping in his arms every night that he's here. I sleep so much better, so very much better. . . I just need a simple two bedroom place for now...thats it...I need some space of my own, to do my own thing, when I want, and how I want.
Claude got to meet scrub last night, that was intersting, but he had to approve of both his "daughters" boyfriends.. (meagan and myself) he threated him, of course with the "don't fuck with her" and "I have a gun" then, "other than that, we're now friends." I then later felt like complete shit for him knowing that I smoked there...and I am really sorry for that Scrub...I'm trying to quit, and I'm not really 'just saying that.'
Other than that, everything is going pretty well..just basically, ready to move out and be on my own with claude as soon as we both can have good steady jobs...just ready to start my life...i dont want to be one of those kids who graduate and three years later are still in trenton, living at their parents house. no offence to those of you, it's just not my style...
-"mrs. snelling!" (inside thing)
working here soon, but have a little time for an update.
claude and i= amazing still, had a fight last night, but everything was made a lot better, as usual. his dad is an asshole, and thats all i can say about that....if he wants grandchildren he'll know whats best for him. ; ) right claude. (just trying to get a smile)
went to the trails for the first time, they looked kinda fun, just wasn't in the mood, i'm going to ask to go back, because i want claude to teach me how to do them....i really want to learn this if i am going to get any better at bmx. :)
you ARE the best cuddler in the world baby.
i WILL see you tonight, promise.
there isn't much else to say right now, bigger update soon.
I LOVE YOU CLAUDE BENJAMIN SNELLING!
-current clothing: basketball shorts, and colorguard shirt
-current mood: bored
-current taste: chedder and sour cream lays chips...now, ciggarette
-current hair: wet, and in a towel
-current annoyance: claude not being here
-current smell: smoke
-current thing you ought to be doing: laying in claudes arms
-current jewelry: earrings, various piercings, necklace, graduation ring
-current book: nothing
-current refreshment: water
-current worry: working tomorrow
-current favorite celebrity: if claude was a celeb..him of course...but ihave to say john travolta
-current music: i keep humming "yesterday" by the beatles
-current wish: being moved out and settled in with claude
-current lyric in your head: "yesterday...all my troubles seemed so far away"
-current makeup: zip, nada, nothing, zilch
-current undergarments: my red and black pirate looking undies
-current regret: not having money or enough money to get things i need badly...aka car, apt.
-current desktop picture: it's my moms computer
-current plans for tonight/weekend: sleeping missing claude tonight...weekend...work
-current cuss word: fuck
-current amusement: im not amused.
-current IM/person you're talking to: claude
-current love: CLAUDE
-current obsession: see above
-current avoidance: trying not to sneak out of the house with my moms car just to get a hug and kiss from claude, and just to see him for a little bit.
-current thing or things on your wall:bullitine of claude, bmx posters, paintings, shelves, posters
-current favorite movie: face off, forever and always will be