I hate being pissed off or upset badly for no apparent reason...i just wish i could have some friends that want me to sleep over or what not. everyone is in college, having children, getting married...etc. I want all of that. So bad. I shouldn't have taken him home. I'm greedy. It feels good that someone wants to hang out with you all the time, then you get jealous that someone else is taking them away from you. So, here I sit at almost midnight, i don't start school tomorrow, or for a while i guess...im not getting married soon or having a child (i dont want one yet...but you should konw what i am saying) so here i sit; waiting around until i get a phone call that may not even be made...he's probably partying or something. i'll kill jordan if something bad happens to him...i will. i hate this world.
sorry im complaining.
I'm sorry babe. I have nights like this also. I know exactly what your saying and I'm in the same boat. We both know what we want out of life, it's just difficult to accomplish because we don't have the money for it. Like, I would love to get married tomorrow and start a family, but it's just not in the cards right now. I know your frusterated, but I know things will work out for all of us, it just takes time. I'm so impatient and it's hard for me, as I can imagine for you as well. If there is anything I can do, let me know! I love you babe!
thanks, you've always been there for me with everything. i really apperciate it a lot. i know i have friends that care. its just nights like these i don't feel like i do...when i know you and rochelle are out there. i guess this is the night it hits where i realize i'm out of school and there isn't anything to do yet. im trying to get into an online university for my asso. in business, but i haven't applied yet..kind of scared...plus trying to find a full time job is hard as well...
still, i was wondering if you needed some help with both guard seasons this year. or i'm just going to have to be the loser guard alumni that keeps coming back just to watch and offer any help i can give. i'd be interested in doing hair and makeup for winterguard...i think it'd give me some good experience for cosmo school since thats what i want to be doing...let me know. thanks again, and i love you too!
i know it's not the same coming over here and hanging out with me, but on average from about 1AM to 6AM i sit here at the house and get drunk watchin movies by myself. your always welcome to come over if ya want to. i usually just figure that your with claude or something. but anytime ya wanna hang out you can crash here.